Archive for March, 2009

Updated – Random Thought //Windows and blinds

March 26, 2009 2 comments

Haha, this was never supposed to be published! I wrote down my thoughts real quick so that I wouldn’t forget them and hit publish instead of save as draft! woops! No better time than now though…

So why do we have windows, but keep the blinds closed? That doesn’t really make sense to me. We have a window into the world, this beautiful, beautiful world, but then shut it out, because it’s too “bright.” It’s not “energy efficient.” Now, I am as green as the next guy, maybe even more in certain regards, but who cares! Turn your ac off and open the windows! Let that beautiful sunlight in! Did you know that in the depression era, in the ghettos of New York and Chicago and others, people suffered from serious depression because they had no windows? No windows at all! We have them, yet we choose to block out what is behind it.

Think about it. You know you love it when you see a beautiful day outside. Why not invite it inside? For me, sunlight is such a beautiful light. It provides such beautiful contrast, brings out the richness of the colors in nature, all sorts of things. I love it when I wake up and walk into my kitchen and see the sun shining on my dining room table… I’ll take a picture sometime and show you guys. It’s beautiful.

What now? What sort of benefit do you get from reading this little rant of mine? Learn to Enjoy life! What’s the purpose in living if it sucks? Live in freedom. LIVE. For me, that includes opening the windows. It’s simple and elegant. Life. It can be awesome if you let it.

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Random Thought //”Quit Daydreaming”

March 25, 2009 1 comment

neverending-story-jesusSo it’s been a while since my last posting… So dearly sorry. Lots of stuff been going on.

So here’s a random thought. I was watching The Neverending Story with my sister and niece over spring break. In the very beginning, the main character, Sebastian, is sitting at the dinner table eating breakfast with his dad. His dad was commenting on how his teachers were reporting that Sebastian day dreamed too much and didn’t pay attention. His dad proceeded to tell him to “quit daydreaming and face your problems.” How sad. That’s right, how sad. From personal experience, I feel that we don’t daydream enough. Whatever happened to imagining clouds were lions and that the birds were secretly dragons, but during the day had to hide so they wouldn’t be killed by the evil dragon hunters? Whatever happened to making animated flip books out of your vocabulary books, or doodling on napkins at McDonalds? I fear that creativity is something that is being killed in today’s society. Our schools are pushing more and more academics, critical thought, and not enough abstract thought.

I remember when I was a child, I was creative. I thought outside the box. I would see bear faces in the trees, and imagine that I was a wild space cadet, traveling all across the universe. Or I was a fighter pilot, saving my nation. Or I was a Knight in shining armor, saving my 4th grade crush from the evil bully. IMAGINATION. In our classes (and society) we are taught to write papers a certain way, to read books a certain way, pray to God a certain way, talk to our parents a certain way, do everything a certain way. It has to fit into a box. The beautiful thing about creativity is that it makes the box it fits in! You can’t make it conform to a set of rules, although guidelines definitely assist in the creative process, such as the rule of thirds or color harmonies. Creativity is being stifled.

So what do you leave here with? What do you do or think or say? Let’s all protest at the capitol? No. Not necessarily. What you can do is this: grab a piece of scratch paper and draw. Nothing in particular. Just put your pen on paper and let it do the rest. Or, grab a spoon and tap your desk. You can tap it to a static beat, tap, tap, tap, tap. Go from there and make it a little more different, tap, tap tap, tap, tap tap. Or, grab a journal (or computer) and write. Doesn’t matter what, just write. Write a story, a poem, a haiku. Something. Just write.

BE CREATIVE! Think outside the box! Go outside and enjoy the earth that God has made. He’s the ultimate creator. Be inspired =] He kind of knew what he was doing… Haha

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Everything’s amazing, nobody’s happy

March 18, 2009 1 comment

This is so true. We are all complainers. Puts everything in an interesting light =p

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Excerpts from “The Problem with the Pattern”

March 18, 2009 1 comment

“…Nouwen objects. ‘I am deeply convinced,’ he writes, ‘that the Christian leader of the future is called to be completely irrelevant and to stand in this world with nothing to offer but his or her own vulnerable self. That is the way Jesus came to reveal God’s love.'”

“What if church leaders were honest about what they have to offer, were content to be irrelevant, and were expectant that God’s power would be made perfect in our weakness?”

“As Nouwen says, ‘The way of the Christian leader is not the way of upward mobility in which our world has invested so much, but the way of downward mobility ending on the cross … I am speaking of a leadership in which power is constantly abandoned in favor of love.'”

“We know from the Book of Acts that the early Church was distinct from the other cultural institutions of its day. Its faith, love, and practices were unique, strange, and somewhat mysterious to the first-century world, and yet it flourished. The early Church was the exact opposite of the Roman Empire, and yet it flourished. Christianity wasn’t popular, it was persecuted, and yet it flourished.”

“In Acts 2, Luke notes that the Lord was adding to the numbers of early Christians daily. It seems fitting that in the absence of the pattern and its relevance, popularity, and power, God gets the credit for the growth of the early Church.”

All these quotes come from a post by the editor of one of my favorite magazines, Collide. His name is Scott McClellan. How humbling! I don’t even know what to say… That may be best. Instead of rambling, I’ll let my words be few, ha.

Soak it in. Read the article. Discuss in the comments! Look forward to hearing what you have to say!

Mars Hill Church | Doctrine | Resurrection: God Saves | The Hope of Jesus’ Resurrection

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Yes, I cry

March 11, 2009 1 comment

man, so the past few days have been a roller coaster emotionally. This is the most I’ve cried in a very very long time. This dream I had the other day was very in-depth and I really wish that it was real but it isn’t. It tugged at a lot of heart strings and when I woke up and realized that it wasn’t real, I cried. I really cried. That’s how hard it was. Then I found out stuff that’s going on with family (can’t say any more than that), my dog is dying, this stupid money thing with my credit card, and realizing how far I have to go in my walk with Christ. It’s so funny to think: the closer I get to God, the more I realize just how far away I am from him. But that’s the beauty of it. It makes me desperate, because I start to realize that I don’t have it all together. I really, really need God, because if I try to do this by myself, I’m going to fail miserably. The biggest way that I see this is in my super, ridiculously strong desire for a spouse. Every so often that chord will get struck and I’ll usually be blindsided by it. It’s debilitating. It also shows my lack of trust with God. I know that he is working everything out for my best (romans 8:28)and that he will grant me the desires of my heart (psalm 37:4), but sometimes I don’t believe it. And that’s when I get in trouble. I’ll start freaking out, asking God, why can’t it be now? Why am I more passionate for them than for you? Where is this coming from? Why do I have to wait? I thought you promised them to me? If I thought you spoke to me about this, what else am I wrong about? And the questions keep coming.

I know I’m not alone in this. Which I’m thankful for. Very, actually. If you struggle with this, or just doubt God in things, meditate/ruminate/stew/chew on this verse, 2 Corinthians 1:3-11:

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 5 For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. 6 If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. 7 Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.

8 For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. 9 Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. 10 He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. 11 You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.

Y’all, God longs to comfort us in our affliction. God doesn’t want me to suffer needlessly. He wants to comfort me. And also, God uses this to build my faith in him (1 Peter 1:6-7)! It’s all for a purpose. It will all work out. God loves me. What he has promised, he will deliver on!! It’s a good thing. It’s not worth worrying about. I just have to wait a little longer is all…

I’m excited =]

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Scams and Crazy Dreams

I wish I could find a picture to fit this, but I couldn’t. Praise God you guys didn’t follow through with the laptop thing. I’ve been paying close attention to my credit card statement and there have been multiple fraudulent charges.

Dirty. Just, plain, dirty. I’m disputing them through Citi and praying that they get cancelled soon… Man. Anyway. This isn’t worth stressing over.

Something I’ve been thinking about today is this: it’s better to be bold and look stupid than to be a coward and save face. So why have I been thinking this? I’ve been having some pretty vivid and realistic dreams as of late. Extremely realistic and even weirder, extremely specific. Now that I think about it, and after a bit of research, the places that have been mentioned in my dreams haven’t been real, despite their specificity. Anyway, I thought I might want to give some of these some merit, because every now and again I have dreams that do come true… those deja vu moments, you know? But yeah, I had a dream in a dream and in the first dream i dreamt that someone else had dreamed a dream, and that our dreams were connected. Well, I texted this person today and asked them if they had any dreams the night before. A few hours later (more like a few seconds) I had the overwhelming feeling of “Oh crap.” Most of the day I’ve been wrestling with that feeling of “what did I just do… oh gosh.” But I also came to a realization in the process: God is humbling me. It’s a bizarre connection but bare with me. That “oh crap” feeling was my pride seeping out; I had lost face. For most of the day I was wrestling with my pride but then God gave me a peace about it. Yes, I had made a bit of a fool of myself, created a bit of an awkard situation, but at the end of the day awkward situations can be moved on from. And thats what I need to do. Sacrifice my pride and move on. And all is better.

You know, despite the whateveriness of the day, it turned out to be ok. I went for a jog, slept in, got humbled. Good day.

Be praying for my campus ministry, Christian Campus Fellowship. We have a team in Haiti and Chicago right now on a mission trip. Be excited for what is to come =]

(by the way, my neice is watching the Neverending Story right now. Talk about old school)

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